:: To Jamie ::

This will not make sense to anybody but her.

Why would I post this on my blog you might ask?

Well, that would be because Jamie and I have not truly and actually "talked" in like two months.

It makes me sad but I made a promise to myself and to her that I would not be the one to contact her anymore-she had to do it.  Does it sound like we are a junior high couple? cause we are-don't judge.

If you don't care what I have to say to Miss Jamie Lynne then stop reading.

NOW.

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Ok if you are still here then you must want to know.

So here we go.

Dear Jamie-
       I wasn't sure if I liked you at first- I thought you were a follower of Satan's mistress (AKA- Lisa).  After her reign of hell was over you got to open up and actually talk to me...then I fell in love with you (best friend love- not lesbinim love kids) and it was like we had been friends our whole lives.  Being the bitter and hilarious people we were hanging out with our "sunshine, lollipops, and puppies" friend Brooke. I had someone to go to and talk to about things other than my sisters.  You were always the right friend to open up to.  I always said I have two groups of friends The party people and my married and calmed down girls, you somehow fit right in the middle and was exactly what I needed in a best friend.  I had been close with you for like a month when I said "Jamie, why don't you just be in my wedding?" and you laughed and I said "um, no Jaym, like seriously" because you had talked me off my "bridezilla" ledge multiple times already at that point, gone with me to meet florists, meet photographers, and looked at bridesmaid dresses with me--all this was before I even made you a bridesmaid yourself! awesome-town population....YOU! 
 You made the most beautiful wedding/guest book for my wedding and hauled your hot married mom ass with us to Vegas for my bachelorette party and I am pretty sure you danced more than me the first night! haha Our Wednesday nights featured scrap booking sessions and furniture re-finishing, our Friday nights-Saturday days were lazy with movie watching and funfetti cupcake making and sometimes involved trips to the D.I.  I have been hanging out with some old friends lately and discovered that I don't like it- I miss my friendship with you.  Tiffany has been there still as my constant best friend but everyone wants more than one best friend right? I know you go through your moments of being a "hermit crab" but I know you need a best friend too.  Shaylee is adorable but lets face it- the girl can't carry on a solid conversation-probably because she is only like a year and a half old but still. haha There was a disagreement and some hurt feelings and that was a weird and awkward situation for both of us- mostly because we had never been in a fight before (well besides when you freaked your beak over me taking your phone) I felt hurt, betrayed and abandoned and truthfully I still do.  I always wanted to talk to you about it but I am the person that usually shows you why I am angry before I show you why I am sad so I just decided to not talk to you in person about it because I thought all you would see is my anger side of things.  JCHA knew exactly from the beginning my true feelings...he saw the hurt side and addressed it with me and made it better for me and him.  I fear you only saw the angry part and so you pulled away as well.  
On your guys last day there- I was an emotional mess on the inside- and you thought Brooke was bad! It hurt more that you didn't pull me aside and say your own good-byes to me and that made me feel even more like this move was also a move away from our friendship.  When it came down to "the last diet pepsi session in JCHA's office" I let it all out and cried...and cried... and cried and now as I am thinking about it I am starting to cry again! but....I couldn't show that in front of you- what can I say? JCHA brings it out in me-it's the whole big brother-little sister thing again. Then days, weeks and eventually months went by and still...no re-kindled friendship. So I am reaching out-this is me wearing my heart on my sleeve and it doesn't happen very often so take note. I miss our friendship. I miss having someone to talk to.  
I miss.....
 "Omeprazole" and "zetia" said in Italian voices
"freakin my beakin"
trading my diet cokes for your diet pepsi's
yelling at you for having mud on your shoes
dance parties in the car..or your garage while we paint
Zoupas dates
Grey's dates 
being your "nanny" when we would go places with Shaylee
making "the face" at you
being the crazy to your hypothyroidism
 I miss you.
I still have so much to tell you but seeing as how this post is already crazy long I think I shall leave it with some pics.

Me and Shaylee bug

love you..seriously though.. I do

I want it...like way bad.

This contest looks like my dream come true.

I have this kitchen.

She isn't pretty but she isn't horrible.

It drives me crazy- I like literally don't go in there cause it bugs me so bad

It probably bugs me more because I work and go to school and my house should

just freaking be looking exactly how I want it to look!!!

so..lets see the dirty work eh?

 Remember when red kitchens were like way cool?

 the red stops here. I was already sick of it then...ssshhh don't tell my husband. He was still painting the second coat when I said "um let's just stop at the wall with the sliding glass door" and in my head was thinking..."blah!!!!"

 like my way too long curtains on the sliding glass door? wal-mart style baby..that's how I roll , and they usually only have like one size left in the color of curtains you want.  When your sliding glass door is naked and people can peep into your kitchen--you take what you can get. 

 This is what I HATE. THOSE CUPBOARDS!!

 I have these crazy cool arches in my house that are wasted on my ugly kitchen
WASTED I TELL YOU!

 yucky light brown cupboards that do not match...um oh yeah anything!!  

Did you throw up yet? 

cool tile in my entryway

 ugly linoleum in the kitchen...that has paint on it in random spots by the way (I am not a neat painter...like at all)

Oh yes...and there is also no window treatment on the window over the sink. When you are poor you just cover the main windows...you don't worry about the little one over the kitchen sink,... or in the bathroom,... or in your husband's nerd room where he gets dressed everyday. Minor details people, MINOR. 

See what I mean about the arches in my house? rocking your socks off right? That is actually the first thing I loved about our house. 

Oh Hi granite-looking-maybe-expensive-but-you're-not counter top..why are you attached to such ugly fake ish looking wood?

Let me tell you...I am a handles on my cupboards loving kinda girl...see how there are no handles on any of my cupboards in my kitchen? Embarrassing how I still to this day-after living in our house for a year- don't know which side to open them on? Handles people. these are a few of my favorite things (said in a Julie Andrews song voice)

notice our light above the table? see how it is a sideways and funky a little bit? That would be because anytime that our table is moved (ever so slightly might I add) and the light is hanging out there by itself someone always.....ALWAYS walks into it and nearly breaks it every time.  Especially if my husbands friend Lance is there...dude is like 6"4 and smacks his head on that every-freaking-time. You would think that someone who has been to our house so much and is used to being so tall would learn to watch out for low hanging light fixtures.  I don't bother fixing it because it will just get messed up again.

I despise this kitchen. It is the only thing I want to change in my house but I never have the money or the time..so please VR-- HELP ME HELP ME and come LOVE MY FREAKING GUTS!!! I am only in Salt Lake- that is just a mere 4 hours from you---ROAD TRIP!! You will save money on travel which would leave more money to destroy and re-love the sad little pathetic guts that are my kitchen. 

My husband would appreciate it as well because then he wouldn't have to hear me complain about it all the time! I have good intentions for this kitchen Mandi (for those of you that don't know who she is I suggest you learn, she will change your life...like fo' real), but I think you would make dreams come true if you came and worked some of that vintage revival magic on it.

Love,

The-kitchen-hating little Mrs.  

Just because I'm awesome like that

I re finished a console benchy thingy..yep thats what I am calling it.

I originally wanted some sort of hope chest to go at the end of our bed but I was having trouble finding one at the loverly D.I. so instead I settled for thing benchy thingy. Looks pretty awesome if I do say so myself. 

BEFORE--this was still while it was in the store

The AFTER 

The close up of her lady curves 

This is how it looks with our bed spread- you dont get a full size pic because our bed hasn't been made in months. Don't judge me. 

:: Come on get down with the sickness ::

cause you know I am.

1. Where did my random kick-yo butt cough come from?

2. Why don't I have a voice?

3. Why do I have a job where I need to talk a lot and be around people who hate being around sick people?

Ok so obviously I am a little under the weather- although really I'm not.

I have a cough that is kicking my trash and for some reason it is also causing my voice to disappear. cool right? I had like .5% of a voice this morning. I hauled my no-voice, 2-pack-a day-30-year-smoker sounding self into work and am a little bitter about it...can you tell?

So my loverly friend Brooke traded me this morning so that I could be in the lab and not have to talk much- which I fully appreciate but I have had two patients tell me already " why are you sick and at work? don't you know that those of us with diabetes have a weakened immune system and get sick really easily?"

Oh really? I had no idea!!! I haven't been working here for 5 years and I don't have a sister with type 1 diabetes so I did not know that!!...sarcasm much?  So I am a little bugged at my working environment today- but I have had mostly nice patients so that has made it a little better. On a really really positive note- I have a new baby niece!! WOOT FREAKIN WOOT! she does not have a name yet..which does not surprise me because that is how my brother has always been when it comes to naming his children but look how precious she is...

um hi..you are cute much.

Please excuse me now while I go cough up my internal organs..TMI I know but that's how I feel.

:: For your viewing pleasure ::

Happy Hump Day Kids!! Here is something to keep you going- I know it sure helps me!

Oh yeah- I love it when he shows his sleeve- I like a man with tats!

Getting back to my roots

I grew up with horses

like I am pretty sure I learned how to ride a horse before I learned how to walk.

which may be why I still have never learned how to swim

(don't judge me, pools are for laying by not swimming in)

back in the day when I first got my horse Hank I would ride him everyday and spend hours brushing and combing his hair.

These days.....

not so much.

mostly because he is out at my family farm in Bridgeland...Utah of course.

So there he is...out there...getting fat and sassy and enjoying the life of a farm horse with no 14 year old wanting to bug him.

But still....

I. Miss. Him.

wanna see why?

Cause he is beautiful...and he likes me.

well when I have a pocket full of orange carroty deliciousness.

looking forward to spending more time out there when the weather gets better!

:: I gave up....

Yeah big surprise-- I gave up on the blog about something for 30 days thing...once I started doing that I realized that I have lots to talk about and don't need to have some little game tell me what to say.

Granted--you might not want to hear about 92% of what I have to say (yes I said 92- get over it)

but imma tell ya anyways.

and speaking of things imma tell you anyways can I please just say...

how much I am loving my favorite blogs?

http://www.frommrstomama.com/

http://www.vintagerevivals.blogspot.com/

http://www.betterafter.blogspot.com/

seriously.

go.

check.

them.

out.

especially from mrs to mama-- I could read her posts all day.

makes me think that I could be a fun and hilarious mama like her.

someday.

when I feel like hubbs and I can afford it.

which at this rate will be.....

...................................

NEVER!

okay okay I am getting off subject here

Main topic- read my fav bloggos

love em.

and then give them back cause they are mine!!!